I didn't do great yesterday. The plans for the weekend and Monday are Joey & Niki staying over Saturday, Sunday will be a huge family cookout at Dad's, and Monday, David and I are going on a date. So, that's 3 days I've had to plan for...so I won't have any screw ups. Problem is, I've already screwed up for Saturday. I started out good for breakfast and lunch, but didn't do great at dinner. I'm a little upset about it.
Breakfast: 2 slices Ezekial raisin bread (whole grain,organic, lots of fiber and nutrients), 1 tsp. homemade coconut butter, 1/2tsp. butter, 2 slices turkey bacon (organic, no nitrites, not cured), 1/2c. Bear Naked green juice
Snack: 1 100 calorie pack of cocoa roast blue dimaond almonds
Lunch: 1 whole wheat wrap, 4 slices turkey (hormone free all natural), 2 slices cheddar, 1/2 green bell pepper, 1c. romaine & arugula, 1tbsp. Newman's Own Ranch dressing, bottle of Perrier sparkling water
Here's where the mess up happened. Joey, Niki, and I went shopping for several hours at the Gaffney Yellow Mall. We didn't realize how late it was when we were leaving...it was around 7:30. We originally planned to go by the grocery store to pick up extra meat to cook at the house, but since it was late my bro proposed we get take out. At this point I was a little apprehensive, b/c I only feel safe eating from a few places....and Niki wanted Chinese food. After my last incident with chinese food, I told myself I probably shouldn't eat anymore unless I'm sure it doesn't have MSG. I also just don't feel like any of the food is healthy at Americanized chinese restaurants. Alas, I still ate Chinese food. (sigh) I ordered Hibachi beef (beef, zucchini, mushrooms, broccoli), steamed dumplings, and a spring roll. We came home and I dipped food from the container onto a smaller plate so I'd eat less. I made sure to eat every green veggie I could find in it and had about 1/2c. FRIED rice. I gave Joey and Niki several dumplings, but I still ended up eating 3 or 4 which was too many. I ate 2 pieces of General Tsao chicken from Joey's plate and 1/2 eggroll after that. I ate too much shrimp sauce on my hibachi. I ate a fortune cookie as well.
Then, we had to return a movie to Blockbuster from last weekend. They wanted coffee drinks so we went through McDonald's drive-thru. I originally wasn't going to get one, but I hadn't tried the frappes and really wanted one...I asked for a small. I got it, took a few sips...it was EXTREMELY too sweet, so I gave it to Niki. We came home and I made my own frappe: Granulized coffee, a little (very little)chocolate soy milk, 1% milk, ice cubes, stevia, a little gave nectar, icecubes. This tasted better to me than what I had previously. I do think my tastebuds have changed a little. I'm not eating as much refined sugar as I once did. Last summer I was addicted to McD's coffee drinks. I've went a long time w/o having one and all it tastes like now is pure chemical sugar. So, I guess that's a plus, but I'm still mad at myself for screwing up so royally at dinner.
Today I feel so swollen again, I feel groggy again, and I just overall do not feel energetic. So, I have 2 more events I need to plan for...I really need to do better. Wish me luck. I've already told David ahead of time to knock me upside the head if he sees me pick up anything processed at the cookout...he'll probably enjoy this. lol I'm going to bring my huge water bottle full of green tea. If I have a burger, I'll eat it on a whole wheat bun. No chips, soda, baked beans (sugar), or anything else that isn't close to it's original form or anything that has a ton of chemicals in it. I'm going to do better.
Sorry for all the ranting, but I have to get it out in words, coaching myself so I can be prepared. You guys understand right? Any tips on how to avoid screw ups when plans fall through? I still haven't mastered this by a long shot. I think maybe I should have skipped the chinese and made myself food here at home...even if I was starving.
I haven't had a loss in 9 days...I'm getting antsy. I've gotta do this thang.