Saving My Life

Anything I post on here about PCOS or any other condition, is general information or information I've accumulated in my experience having PCOS or other conditions. I'm not a doctor, so nothing I say should EVER take place of a real diagnosis from your doctor. My eating plan described on this blog is one I've made for myself and I'm constantly changing it according to my body's needs.

Sunday, March 21, 2010

March 20th, 2010 Food Log and my Screw-Up

I didn't do great yesterday. The plans for the weekend and Monday are Joey & Niki staying over Saturday, Sunday will be a huge family cookout at Dad's, and Monday, David and I are going on a date. So, that's 3 days I've had to plan I won't have any screw ups. Problem is, I've already screwed up for Saturday. I started out good for breakfast and lunch, but didn't do great at dinner. I'm a little upset about it.

Breakfast: 2 slices Ezekial raisin bread (whole grain,organic, lots of fiber and nutrients), 1 tsp. homemade coconut butter, 1/2tsp. butter, 2 slices turkey bacon (organic, no nitrites, not cured), 1/2c. Bear Naked green juice

Snack: 1 100 calorie pack of cocoa roast blue dimaond almonds

Lunch: 1 whole wheat wrap, 4 slices turkey (hormone free all natural), 2 slices cheddar, 1/2 green bell pepper, 1c. romaine & arugula, 1tbsp. Newman's Own Ranch dressing, bottle of Perrier sparkling water

Here's where the mess up happened. Joey, Niki, and I went shopping for several hours at the Gaffney Yellow Mall. We didn't realize how late it was when we were was around 7:30. We originally planned to go by the grocery store to pick up extra meat to cook at the house, but since it was late my bro proposed we get take out. At this point I was a little apprehensive, b/c I only feel safe eating from a few places....and Niki wanted Chinese food. After my last incident with chinese food, I told myself I probably shouldn't eat anymore unless I'm sure it doesn't have MSG. I also just don't feel like any of the food is healthy at Americanized chinese restaurants. Alas, I still ate Chinese food. (sigh) I ordered Hibachi beef (beef, zucchini, mushrooms, broccoli), steamed dumplings, and a spring roll. We came home and I dipped food from the container onto a smaller plate so I'd eat less. I made sure to eat every green veggie I could find in it and had about 1/2c. FRIED rice. I gave Joey and Niki several dumplings, but I still ended up eating 3 or 4 which was too many. I ate 2 pieces of General Tsao chicken from Joey's plate and 1/2 eggroll after that. I ate too much shrimp sauce on my hibachi. I ate a fortune cookie as well.
Then, we had to return a movie to Blockbuster from last weekend. They wanted coffee drinks so we went through McDonald's drive-thru. I originally wasn't going to get one, but I hadn't tried the frappes and really wanted one...I asked for a small. I got it, took a few was EXTREMELY too sweet, so I gave it to Niki. We came home and I made my own frappe: Granulized coffee, a little (very little)chocolate soy milk, 1% milk, ice cubes, stevia, a little gave nectar, icecubes. This tasted better to me than what I had previously. I do think my tastebuds have changed a little. I'm not eating as much refined sugar as I once did. Last summer I was addicted to McD's coffee drinks. I've went a long time w/o having one and all it tastes like now is pure chemical sugar. So, I guess that's a plus, but I'm still mad at myself for screwing up so royally at dinner.
Today I feel so swollen again, I feel groggy again, and I just overall do not feel energetic. So, I have 2 more events I need to plan for...I really need to do better. Wish me luck. I've already told David ahead of time to knock me upside the head if he sees me pick up anything processed at the cookout...he'll probably enjoy this. lol I'm going to bring my huge water bottle full of green tea. If I have a burger, I'll eat it on a whole wheat bun. No chips, soda, baked beans (sugar), or anything else that isn't close to it's original form or anything that has a ton of chemicals in it. I'm going to do better.
Sorry for all the ranting, but I have to get it out in words, coaching myself so I can be prepared. You guys understand right? Any tips on how to avoid screw ups when plans fall through? I still haven't mastered this by a long shot. I think maybe I should have skipped the chinese and made myself food here at home...even if I was starving.
I haven't had a loss in 9 days...I'm getting antsy. I've gotta do this thang.


  1. Eating kills the weight loss..many restaurants under estimate the calories of their foods.
    For instance just the 1/2 cup of fried rice is 225 calories.
    Spring roll 80 calories.
    I used calorie King or calorie count on the internet...
    Maybe next time you could find the restaurant and look at the menu for the things you want..then go to one of the sites listed above to get a calorie total so you have the tools you need to help you.
    Don't trust the restaurant calorie total.
    Just three or four more ounces of beef in your dish and the total is off anyway.
    You can do this.
    Just keep going.

  2. Hi Kim , don't beat up on yourself girl. You are doing fine. I'm hard on myself too so when I see it in others it's like putting a mirror up for myself. Family time is a good thing. Even though you had a little extra chinese, you tried the Mcdonalds coffee and then rejected it to replace it with a healthier version. That is cool.

    As far as planning, I do it when I know I have a meal out. Then my food addict obsesses over the online menu and picks what she'll get though what she REALLYY wants is 1000 calories. Most times I get what I plan for and occasionally I slip up. I 'm working on the concept of getting to a restaurant and having what's healthy because that is what I Really want not the other thing. Good luck and have fun.

  3. Life happens. Changing your internal dialogue will probably go a long way. I have a concerned parent voice inside of me. When I know I'm going to get Chinese when I'm starving and wasn't expecting to eat out, I give myself a little talking to. "Order one thing only. Go for more veggies, no fried stuff. (imagine your parents telling you what you can order at a restaurant)" Inside, I'm starving and my eyes are bigger than my stomach, so I'm going to want to order egg rolls and such but I make myself do only one item. I know that once I get it in my belly I'll feel better and that one entree will be more than enough. The key really is to not feel a victim to circumstances where you say "well,what the hell" when you get to eat outside the rules. Still carry the inner parental voice with you when you have something unexpected happen. If you kick yourself around the block for the decisions you made, you remain in the victim stance. That's the one that says "circumstances and habits got in the way. It was because I had to eat out. I couldn't control my food choices." You always have control, even when you have to make decisions like eating out. Just take your inner parent with you when you make decisions. She'll be sure you stay on task and get your rounded meals too boot. I call mine "Meal Mommy" and she's a real food nazi. (hee hee)

  4. You probably can't take too much of that chinese food torture test. Eventually you'll figure this all out.