Saving My Life

Anything I post on here about PCOS or any other condition, is general information or information I've accumulated in my experience having PCOS or other conditions. I'm not a doctor, so nothing I say should EVER take place of a real diagnosis from your doctor. My eating plan described on this blog is one I've made for myself and I'm constantly changing it according to my body's needs.

Friday, May 14, 2010

Keepin on

I probably should have mentioned it in the last post, but b/c it's becoming more natural to me now, I don't even think of it much....but, I'm sitll a non smoker just in case you guys are wondering. I'm seriously going to have to find more ways to destress though....b/c that's not been in the "non smokers" handbook yet. Urrgh. Anyway, I'm just sleepy.....very sleepy...did I mention this already? lol Yes, I'm sad, but I talk more about it on here than in real life. If you guys were to meet me in real life, you'd see that I'm a very positive person and I laugh....a lot....and I laugh really loud...annoyingly loud probably...I dunno. I have to be strong for my loved ones, that's my job. My dad, mom, brothers, my in-laws, my kids, and most of my friends do not even have the slightest clue what I'm going through mentally right now. I just can't burden anyone. I've spoken with one close girlfriend about it and one sweet friend from highschool over facebook....and then you guys. That's it. I'm not sure if it's a good thing or bad thing, but honestly in the real world I do not know anybody who has the mental capacity to hear my problems right now b/c they've got their own stuff. I'm usually the when I do find someone to listen, it is a huge release for me b/c I'm not used to having that...someone who asks me questions about my life or even has an interest in my life. I'm not complaining, b/c the ability to be a listener is a very special's not something every person has especially in this day and age. I find there are many more listeners here in blogosphere. I'm sorry I've only been by a couple blogs lately, but I'm sure you guys understand. I just can't leave comments when I'm not feeling positive right now and you guys deserve a lot better than a generic "Way to go!!". Ya know what I mean? Anyway, thanks guys for your support and listening....and for your sweet heartfelt comments. Also, thanks to all my new followers for joining. My number keeps going up and I'm not even it means a lot to me that you guys actually like reading my rants and eccentricities. lol  Thank you and I swear this will turn back into a weight loss blog again/ PCOS info site soon.☺☺☺


  1. It's great you're smoke-free, Kim!
    I have an idiotically loud laugh.

    Just dump your crap here ... there's always someone around to lend an ear.
    And it's YOUR blog ... you can fill it up with anything you like ...

  2. When I quit years ago I also struggled with feeling very sleepy for a stretch. I don't remember how long it went on, but it certainly was a challenge and it did go away. One reason you feel like this is one of the chemicals in cigarette smoke is a mild stimulant of sorts. It constricts the blood vessels, making the body feel like it is getting a greater supply of oxygenated blood, hence that awake feeling. In truth it is a tease because we are getting less of the good stuff with every puff ! The affect will go away soon. Life events that bring us down are not so easy to go away ! I find really cranky music, either played on my MP3 player or beaten out on my guitar to be a very satisfying form of stress relief. It makes my son laugh at me in the process, and his laugh could make The Grinch soften !

  3. Way to stay a are having one tough time and if this blog is a forum for coping, then you should use it.

    Getting healthy is more than eating less and moving this needs to be apart of it too.

  4. It is important that you share with your friends. I didn't for a long time. But people who need help often like to help. I always tried to be the strong one too....
    Sometimes you need help. It's okay to ask for help.