Had a CAT scan....came back negative for infection. Bummer. I'm feeling a lot better though...better than I have in months and months...or has it been that long...I'm not sure b/c I haven't kept track of the days. I've been in a perpetual state of pain. I'm going to use this time to get my house back in order and get prepared for the upcoming homeschool year. THEN I will be back here for normally scheduled programming. The ENT guy bets its a coincidence that I'm getting better on these strong antibiotics.....he mentioned all of this either having to do with the TMJ or he thinks I could have Trigeminal Neuralgia which is what PJ said in the beginning of this crap. I just still have this feeling that it could be infection. I've been on this very strong antibiotic for a little while....what if any infection that was there is gone now but the germ could still be there waiting to pounce again once I come off the medicine? I kinda had a panic moment today after they told me the CT scan of my sinuses came back normal....b/c I've been in the worst pain ever and imagininig it coming back when I've felt so good for the past few days is very disheartening. I akin it something like killing a puppy. :o( Anyhoo, just thought I'd update you guys. I really appreciate the support guys. Sometimes it feels like I get more support from friends....even from afar....than I do here at home. David's just been waiting for me to get better so he doesn't have to act compassionate anymore....it's a very hard emotion for him. I promise I'm not being a smart ass....he admits this himself...in his own words. Which is kinda weird to me b/c he's so good at being compassionate with our kids. Oh well. I guess I should just be thankful that he's at least "acting" compassionate. Life's definitely been more bearable with him since he finally figured out that I haven't been faking this shit all along. I think he finally understood when my sister-in-law told me that there is a strand of MRSA that they treat with Levaquin (the drug I'm on) and if the Levaquin doesn't work, the patient is bascially screwed.....is what she told me. I relayed this info to him.....he was a little quiet then....and a whole lot more helpful. He's even stayed home a few times to help me with the kids. I've reminded him he shouldn't have just assumed he'd be the one to get sick....and I've have to take care of him. I told him those marriage vows (in sickness and in health) work both ways buddy. I'm hoping one day his compassionate "act" will turn into a real one....seriously.
In the meantime, I've began enjoying things I truly, truly missed.....like spending quality time with my babies. I've been reading books to them and singing to them every night and I've enjoyed it more than anything in the world. I took my daughter out the other day b/c I told her after this stuff was over that I'd reward her for all the help she's given me with her brother. So, we got manicures. ☺Laters Gators.