I've been crying from the physical pain. I've been crying about my marital problems. I freakin cried at the dentist office today when I started having a migraine from the TMJ pain, although the doc thinks I may need a root canal too. Oh, and I apologized for crying....ha! The dentist told me he's glad I cried b/c it told him how bad my pain truly is. I've never had anyone tell me they're glad I cried. Later tonight, I talked with a friend about what's been going on w/ my marriage. What'd I do??? I cried some more...I don't think I've ever cried around this friend....or any of my friends for that matter. Wow. I quit smoking and now I cry....I cry. I could go a year without crying before this....what happened to me?? Jeez. OH! And I apparently hug people now.....I was not a hugger before. I'm still kinda weird about hugging friends, but when I was hanging out with my friend Amy last week, I hugged her...and it wasn't a little hug. We got teary eyed and hugged for like 2 minutes or something. Is this healthy? B/c this is all strange to me. I was the person ok with these kinds of hugs-- ((hugs)). I'm changing....inside. I'm not depressed....down yes...not depressed. So the tears are hard for me to understand. Oh, and I think I might go back to college and I'm sleeping in my living room right now. I'm happy about it.....that's the strange thing.
Saving My Life
Anything I post on here about PCOS or any other condition, is general information or information I've accumulated in my experience having PCOS or other conditions. I'm not a doctor, so nothing I say should EVER take place of a real diagnosis from your doctor. My eating plan described on this blog is one I've made for myself and I'm constantly changing it according to my body's needs.
Oh my word a lot is going on. I'm envious of your crying...you are alive! You have emotions that you validate by crying...too many are too dead inside to bother with it. If you ever watched "Moscow on the Hudson" with Robin Williams (a good, but underrated movie of his, he celebrated his tears, because as a Russian citizen, it was the only thing that was truly his...he loved his misery for that fact.
ReplyDeleteCrying, hugging? Sounds like true growth to me.
It's still in process right now, but I do this little thing called HERE'S TO YOU THURSDAY on my blog and there will be something for you today. I hope it makes you *LAUGH YOUR ASS OFF.* Hang in there!!!
ReplyDeleteI have to agree with Kyle. It sounds like you are going in a natural and positive direction.
ReplyDeleteYou are going through a lot these days. Crying and hugging is healthy. I'm sorry you are having to go through so much. But, showing your emotions is a lot healthier than bottling them up. ((hugs))...Thanks for all of your support. Your comments have helped me so much.
ReplyDeleteHang in there!! I recently went through a ton of medical issues, one after another, for over a year! I really could not understand why I had to go through all the doctors and hospital visits, medications, tests, x-rays, MRI's, Cat scans, EKG's, EEG's, physical therapy and a bunch of other stuff. Now that I'm past some of the problems, I get why I had to go through this whole deal. I now have the pleasure of helping people with my story. I have run across many people who are over weight and sick. They say they can't do anything about the fat, because of their health issues. Because of what I went through, I have been able to share, that even though...I had a ton of health issues and was very sick, I was still able to get fit and lose weight. Did I cry a ton of tears while riding the bike because my knee hurt - yes I did. I cried, but I still did it! Was I afraid of going to the pool because I might have a facial spasm or because I have chronic swimmers ear, yes I was. I was afraid, but I still did it. Just like you, you're pushing through even though you have pain and things are not going how you want. Keep your focus ~ You can do this!! Hugs!! (Hugs are great by the way!!)
ReplyDeleteCrying is a release of emotions and it must be what our body needs right now.
ReplyDeleteHang in there Kim. It sounds like life is starting to move and change for you. My prayers are with you.