Ok, so I've only told my parents a gazillion times each that I blog. This is usually how it goes: "Oh Kim, I'm so proud you're losing weight. How are you going about it this time?" I say, "I'm blogging. I've got an awesome community of people who are doing the same thing I'm trying to do and we support eachother." They say, "Oh, well that's nice." Well, my mom called me today and I told her what my loss is up to now b/c the last time she and I talked I was like at...20lbs. I think. (That's how often we talk). Well, she was really happy for me. I told her sorry for not replying to her last email. She sent me a forwarded daily devotion that I subscribe to as well and told me the lady who wrote it has a blog support group for weight loss. Then I told her I've been on the website and it's good, but I like my community better. Then she's like, "Oh, what are you talking about?" Then I'm like, " Remember Mom??? I told you I have a weight loss blog of my own and followers and people I follow and we are all like one happy family who supports eachother." (See how talking to my mom takes me back to teenage mode? I do. not. know. why. "rolls eyes") She says, "Oh! I didn't know YOU have a blog. I thought you meant you just look at them." (This is the part where I'm wondering why God gave me full lips and a loud voice since neither of them make people listen to me HALF the friggin time anyway...lol..see? I'm still in teenager mode...total drama queen here :oP) I say, "Yes Mom, I've told you I have a blog many times now." She says, "Well, send me the address so I can look at it." Long pause------ (the sound of crickets) I say, "Umm...I'm not sure Mom. I kinda share a lot of personal stuff there. Let me think about it." She says, "Ok, I understand." (sigh)
I should add, my mother kinda stays in her own world for the most part. I love her and she definitely has great qualities like a good mother does, but she just doesn't usually make an effort to be a big part of my life. So, I feel kinda bad telling her I'm not sure about letting her see my blog, but at the same I wonder why she'd want to see it anyway when she doesn't really take an interest anywhere else in my life. When she does take an interest, she does good. Like the one time I told her I sing karaoke on singsnap.com and she made a profile and left comments on almost every recording I made. LOL! (Then she showed my singsnap profile to several family members...jeez louise.) I mean, she knows some stuff about my past, and nothing would probably surprise her that much anyway. I mean she didn't fly off the handle when my brother Paul admitted he's an agnostic. Also, she just broke up with her boyfriend for the gazillionth time and she's saying it's for good this time. I think she's beginning to feel lonely and out of touch. I think she may be trying to reach out.
On the otherhand, I kinda like being able to say words like "ass" on my blog w/o getting any lip and I also like that I can share my deepest, darkest stuff here as well....yeah, I know...saying "ass" is kinda trivial, but it's my blog and I spend many hours in kiddy land where the word "ass" is not allowed. The thing is though....I don't share much of this stuff with anyone in my real life. Should I open this door? Should I let my Mom be the first family member that follows my blog? Really needing some guidance here. Of course I would delete this post before letting her see the blog....I'm not mean. lol What would you guys do?