I was going to post lastnight after leaving some comments on other blogs, but then my computer went on the fritz. No matter what I tried, it was still moving not even at a snail's pace. So I gave up. Now I'm back, feeling better. I know my last post came as a shock to some, me talking about smoking and all, but I actually announced it on this post called an Addiction Story. If you deal w/ addiction yourself or want to see how much I've truly progressed out of addiction, you may want to read that post. I've lost more weight by the way...I lost 1.4 I think. I just log it on my little ticker thingy at the top of my blog. So that's a BIG plus.
Anyway, after my last post I started feeling a bit better...a bit more confident. I think w/ the hormonal problems, stress problems, and my fear of making big steps was really hindering me. But, isn't that what this journey is about?? Learning things about ourselves and overcoming the odds? For me it is. I'll turn 30 in September. Turning 29 was very hard for me...stupid really...but I pretty much locked myself up in my room for several hours to cry and I'm not a cryer. My husband who is 8 years older than me has already been through the whole "30" thing so he was able to comfort me...and it probably made me feel better knowing he's knocking on 40's door too. hehe. I guess it was hard b/c my 20's were when I got married and started my family. There were a lot of benchmarks in my 20's, but I started thinking. There's been a lot of bad crap too...I became the unhealthiest I've ever been, lots of marital problems in the beginning of my marriage, the loss of two grandparents, and my dad having a stroke and heart attack. Granted I know there will be problems within my 30's as well that I cannot change, but there are things I can change...me. So, I need this thing to work...it's going to work. I've just got to get over the rocky places on the trail. Since I made up my mind for Sunday to be my final quit day, I think it took a burden off me. I've not mentioned yet, that I've got a blogpost in the making addressing the "exercise" part of this journey. I've kinda been saving it for my quit day b/c obviously it's going to play a key role in helping me stay quit. So, be looking for that and my next two posts I'll be working on today. Thanks all for your encouragement and thanks for reading. It means a lot.
Food Log April 21st
Breakfast: 1c. Organic Pumpkin Flax granola, 1c. milk, small handful raw walnuts, small banana
Lunch: (ate out w/ my lovies) Grilled chicken salad w/ 2tbsp. dressing
Dinner: Salad w/ 1tbsp. dressing, 1 small slice mushroom spinach Kashi pizza, 1 grannysmith apple, 1 piece dark chocolate
lots of green tea and water