Saving My Life

Anything I post on here about PCOS or any other condition, is general information or information I've accumulated in my experience having PCOS or other conditions. I'm not a doctor, so nothing I say should EVER take place of a real diagnosis from your doctor. My eating plan described on this blog is one I've made for myself and I'm constantly changing it according to my body's needs.

Thursday, January 28, 2010

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Ok, so square one isn't really square one I've figured out. Everyday is square one it seems like....and I've just decided I'm calling this whole process "The Struggle" b/c a struggle is what it has been so far. I've eaten more junk food in the past two days. The day I was supposed to go grocery shopping got shot. I got a flat tire on the way to the grocery store and it was evening so the grocery store was closed by the time I got my tire fixed. So, I went home and ate cereal b/c it was either that or frozen pot pies (my husband's). Yesterday, I ended up spending many hours at the dentist and once I got out I was so hungry so I ate junk. I got part of my grocery shopping done after that. Today I will finish the rest of my grocery shopping. I decided to buy twice the amount of fruit and vegetables so hopefully I won't run out of everything before the next shopping needs to be done....that's my's weak, but that's all I could come up with. I do good when I'm prepared and I need to work on having a strategy in place when I can't make it to the grocery store for a few days. Hopefully I'll learn from these past two days and maybe I'll be able to avoid a reoccurance the next time around.
   On a better note, I found out I have TMJ yesterday. I know that would be bad news for some people but I've felt horrible for many weeks now and finally they figured out what was wrong with me....and will be able to fix it. My main doc is prescribing appetite suppressants for me (I've tried them before...hoping these will be different). I'm hoping that these combined with good food and good exercise will help this process.
  Soon I will be posting more entries talking about PCOS and I will get back to normal programming with more recipes and healthy menu plans....hopefully.
   Ya know, I read many weight loss blogs. One thing I see here lately that bothers me is comments from readers to bloggers that say, "Well, I'm finally glad to see you losing weight again. I was starting to think I shouldn't follow your blog anymore b/c it just doesn't seem like you're trying anymore.Good for you!" Honestly, I learn so much from bloggers that are very open about their flawed eating behaviors. I've had many revelations about myself b/c of people who choose to be vulnerable and tell of the many outs they've had in weight loss. So, you bloggers out there keeping it real, please don't stop b/c of a few people who may not understand. I think that misteps can bring knowledge just the way good steps can....but just in case, I'm gonna put a waver out there just so there's never any mistake about my intentions.

If you want to see a girl try and fail.....then this may be a blog for you.
If you want to see a girl try and succeed....then this may be a blog for you.
If you want to see someone that's going to be honest about this grueling process known as weightloss....then this blog may be for you.
If you want to be supportive and be supported yourself....then this blog may be for you.

Stay tuned.... :o)


  1. Hey, we're all in the same boat. The other day, I pulled out a notebook from my closet floor that was all dusty. I read it. It was one of those "Monday morning weigh in and measure chart" and had all the following Monday's listed and the goals for each of those Monday's. It was 8 years old and my weight was 20 pounds less. Every night feels like Sunday night with all the conviction, plans, and determination, and every Monday morning arrives with lots of roadblocks. The fact is Biggest Loser folks lose because, well, they're not in the real world. People who lose in the real world have to completely change their life--everything--from habits to shopping to routines to even friends and priorities. It becomes a second job. So, what you're saying is--you're like 99% of those trying to lose weight. Welcome home, sister. I hear ya.

  2. You said all of it way better than I did. LOL Exactly what I meant. :) Yeah, I'm totally gonna have to sit down and figure out this routine stuff...I really never realized how much my routines and running affect my eating. Wow!

  3. Actually, I usually advise patients not to even pay attention to the number on the scale. Wanting to lower a number can lead to all sorts of cheats (dehydration, starvation, crash diets, etc.) that are harmful to long-term health.

    Health weight-loss is slow weight loss, which isn't exciting to watch on a scale. The best thing to do is exactly what you are doing: count your victory in the healthy behavior. When you establish a routine of healthy eating and exercise the weight will gradually follow.

    The best use of a scale in weight management is to make sure you don't go up. Moving up significantly is a sign that something isn't working. The time to weigh yourself religiously is after you reach your goal weight to insure you aren't letting the healthy lifestyle slip.

    Excellent blog, Kim.

  4. Thank you Doctor D for your comment. Yes, I'm still trying grip that the scale isn't the best thing to judge while losing weight...for me especially. I have lymphedema so it's very easy for me to gain a lot of fluid in a short amount of time. Fortunately, I'm finally going back on fluid pills so this should help some, but yes I need to do measurements or just pay attention to the way my clothes feel more than I look at the scale. I really just want people to know what to expect from this blog so maybe those people who are wanting to see a blog episode of "The Biggest Loser" truly understand that this is real life...and in real life people have screw-ups right along with the triumphs. This is what this blog is for...for me to be aware of the screw-ups and triumphs.

  5. I have TMJ. It sucks. I have to wear a bite plate while I sleep. It was so bad at one point that I couldn't close my jaw all of the way for a month. I couldn't play my bassoon (band nerd!!!) and I couldn't chew properly. All of that happened when I first found out that I had it. I've had a few flare ups in the past couple of years that are usually stress induced. I'm a grinder and I really can't help it.

    Blogging about weight loss is all about truth. We're putting ourselves out there for all the see. We're admitting that we have screwed up and we damned determined to fix it.