Saving My Life
Anything I post on here about PCOS or any other condition, is general information or information I've accumulated in my experience having PCOS or other conditions. I'm not a doctor, so nothing I say should EVER take place of a real diagnosis from your doctor. My eating plan described on this blog is one I've made for myself and I'm constantly changing it according to my body's needs.
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
Wow Guys! Thanks!
Ok, so I am taking tonight off so I can look at all these websites and figure out which one I want to use. Thanks for all the suggestions guys! I wasn't expecting so much response...that's what I need. Oh, and now I want a Bodybugg btw. lol Oh, I'm still a non smoker...just in case you're wondering. :) It's really strange how Chantix works. Before when I'd quit I still liked the smell of smoke and I could smell it on my husband but not terribly. I can smell it through his pores even when he's freshly showered....whoa. This Chantix stuff is no joke people. It heightens the stench of cigarettes...it's very strange. Even my friends never knew I smoked...I know this for sure b/c the ones I told were very surprised that I didn't smell like it. Well, if those friends took Chantix I'll bet they could smell a smoker from a mile away...perfumed, down wind smoker or not. Oh, btw, I'm still in a huge amount of pain. I'm beginning to think it's something other than my TMJ. I went to the dentist today and he couldn't see anything so he's sending me to the root canal guy. ugh. Anyway, I think I'm going to spend the next couple of days getting my blueprint laid out for the next leg of this journey. I really feel like that's what this is. Something has changed. I'm not on the appetite supressants and I'm not smoking. I'm dressing up, fixing my hair, wearing makeup, doing my nails, (haven't fixed myself up consistantly like this since I gave birth to my daughter back in 2000) giving my opinions, showing my feelings for once in my life w/o being so concerned with the consequences. The strange thing is, I think I've gained a few pounds back, but I'm not concerned b/c I feel like I'm in control. I've not once felt out of control.....this is a strange feeling to me. It's like, I know I quit smoking and a few pounds could be expected....and I'm not beating myself up for it. I gave myself permission and now I'm reigning myself in and it's all out of sheer L-O-V-E for myself and not fear. Wow. So, I think I've reached....some mark...I'm not sure what it is, but I'm coming into my own, realizing who I am and feeling great about it in spite of the bad stuff. This is huge for me. I am in control of myself...never thought I could say it much less believe it. Pretty cool. Now, I need to get my ass back in gear and lose some more weight and get to exercising. Now I just need the extra push and a pinch of motivation since I'm in so much pain. ugh.☺☺☺